~deficience

... yeahh.
dA really isn't worth it. In fact I'm losing watchers instead of gaining any.
plus nowadays I don't feel like drawing. I am happy.
I am happy.
I can go on my computer freely.
I have many friends to talk with.
Nothing is going wrong.
I am content.
I am happy.
(as of now, anyways, doubtlessly this happiness will not last forever).
I don't feel inclined to draw.
I don't feel inclined to write.
(but I think I'll post up the last story I've written-- I very much like it, and it's considerably long compared to my previous stories).
Drawing or writing were things I did for fun, but mostly to express emotions. Deep, dark emotions. Sadness. Anger. Hate. General angst.
If I drew or wrote something now, it would be of terribly poor quality.
(behold as I continually abuse italics!)
I haven't properly drawn anything on the computer for so long, that if it's not made with the pencil tool (pixels), then it will suck. Lack of use has made this once-been skill of mine rot away and deteriorate.
Maybe I should practice again.
But somehow even practicing won't be worth it. There is no grief to motivate me to express myself at all.

... and I guess I've been seeking out roleplay more than usual because I want Xeiro to be happy too.